I'm on cloud nine! Over the moon! Sleepless! Cos I just received a super early & expensive birthday cum Christmas gift from Ken: A white PSP Slim & Lite! This is the ever most expensive gift that I've ever received from someone and I'm really touched by the gesture. Thanks a lot Ken. I deeply appreciate all that you've done for me and blessed me with. It's amazing how God has brought us close together within this short span of 2 years and how much we've shared in thoughts, sufferings, joy, ups and downs etc. Thanks for always keeping me in prayers as well & always having my interest at heart, ever so willing to go the extra mile for me. You are indeed a very loving person towards others. Be loving and nice towards yourself too ok! Not that you are not, but you can afford to be nicer to yourself.
This reminds me of the Bible study lesson that we had yesterday. We were being taught the ministry of the pastor and talked about the foundation of giving. Bro Gabriel told us that God is motivated by our faith, not our needs and He will never shortchange us. Well, this is nothing new but it has never sink in deep enough into my heart. I've been sowing for the past 9 years. But I still can't see myself breaking out of debt. My faith is leaking and my needs are ever increasing. Sometimes I really questioned God and have doubts within me. Even when Bro Gabriel said that our reward is in heaven, I was thinking: "So what if my reward is in heaven, will I really get to enjoy? I'm suffering on earth now."
However, Bro Gabriel reminded me that whatever we sow, we will definitely reap, but it may not necessarily be in monetary form. It could be in friendship, promotion and wisdom etc. I know I've been greatly blessed in friendship. I have great, lovely and caring friends around me who would support me in times of needs. Friends who would laugh and cry together with me. I am blessed in wisdom and promotion to be able to get a degree in education. End of this year, I'll be blessed to go Shanghai with the school too. Although I had never had a windfall or much cash with me, I am rewarded greatly by other more important things in life, things that money could not buy. It's time that I really appreciate the life that God has given to me and continue to give to Him with a cheerful heart.
However, I do pray that the Holy Spirit will help me to manage my finances so that as much as I am blessed, I will be able to bless others too. I am blessed to be a blessing. I don't want to be a covetous and selfish person that keeps receiving. I want to be generous like Ken! Really. That I can part with so much money and yet still feel happy because I have blessed somebody. This is my wish.
Once again, thanks Ken for loving, caring and blessing me all these while.
I am blessed to be a blessing!
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